Jan
18
2010
today is enough.
I wish I didn’t struggle to find contentment in the day to day. But I do. I wish I just grabbed hold of the things God has provided and accepted them as the gifts they are. But I don’t.
Somewhere during the sandwich slicing, bottom wiping, toilet scrubbing, carpooling my mind has turned to mush. And the once poignant thoughts I used to have feel forever tucked into a locker in the back of mind. And I’ve lost the keys (or maybe someone hid them). And so my mind tends to wander. Towards what I *could* have. What I would like. What I haven’t been given.
And then I lose my contentment. And I miss out on living today. Because my mushy mind won’t focus on what I’ve been given right now. I don’t want to miss that. I don’t want to miss TODAY. Even if today isn’t where I want it to be. It is the only today I get. And it IS a gift.
Everyday I have a choice. And I’m tired of losing so many todays to the vicious cycle of looking towards tomorrow.
I’m ready to allow the beauty of today to keep me focused. To center my heart. To corral my mind.
I’m ready to look around THIS house at the beauty God has provided. And say “It’s enough”. I’m ready to push myself to shout “It’s MORE than enough”. Because we are living abundantly and our days ARE beautiful.
Today is the day, friends, to find the beauty that’s been placed right in front of your eyes. Tomorrow will come.
Jenn,
Your post really spoke to me. I often feel that way myself. But you’re right – TODAY is just as important as tomorrow’s successes & plans. Thank you for the important reminder.
LOVE your blog. Don’t comment often but had to thank you for this today. I feel myself thinking the same way and wishing the days away smetimes. Thanks for reminding me that today is my gift and I need to be thankful!
WOW…I’m pretty sure I could have wrote EVERY word I was reading as though it was coming out of my OWN mind/mouth. I kept thinking to myself, “I have these thoughts”, “I think these things”, as in verbatim. I’m having one of those unproductive days where I’m doing lots of little things and not really getting anything accomplished…muttering through my day…thinking of tomorrow or what is to come in the rest of the week. Always wanting more than I have, what I would like to be doing and how I can get this and that, always desiring to do something different, somewhere else! Instead of taking today for what it is – A GIFT. Enjoying and making the most of every single minute of it. It’s nice to know that we all have these thoughts and thanks for the reminder…though you may be total stranger, I think you are a role model for many; including myself which is what keeps me coming back to your blog. You inspire many…and being human is okay!
Thanks Jenn! I’ve been reminding myself of this since we had a recent talk in church about “finding joy within your means.” It wasn’t just about financial means, but finding joy in your particular circumstances. I’ve been having to “readjust” my attitude a lot lately!
Bravo! This is a hard thing to do (well…unless it’s not). I’m trying to teach myself that things don’t have to be hard, I choose them to be! I have been learning myself to try to live in a state of love each day, not ego. It’s societal norms and behaviors that have taught us to want want want until it becomes normal to feel deprived constantly. To unlearn this behavior and accept the mindset you speak of is work. We should be reminding eachother daily that life is not about getting what we want, but wanting what we’ve got!
Love reading your blog – can’t wait every morning to see if there is something new! Today I’m also going to look around to find the beauty in the every day rush – our school year just started and it’s a mad rush from one thing to the next. My daughter is 7 and my little boy 4 (not so little anymore!!) I live in a small “village” called Kommetjie, close to Cape Town, South Africa.
Your beautiful post was exactly the message I needed today. Thank you.
AMEN! Thanks for the reminder, written soooo clearly and creatively! many xoxo’s
Fantastic Post!
Something I so desperately need to work on. (again)
Thanks,