Before I begin…let me reference this post by saying the past 48 hours have been HORRENDOUS. It all started on Sunday when I was meeting with some of my favorite clients out in the country. We were all set up…sweet baby in a vintage stroller against the perfect barn…perfect. perfect. perfect. Except that my camera started to malfunction and eventually completely died on me. Ok. No biggie. I will re-schedule the session, drive back out to the country, and throw in a big wall print for good measure this week after I get my camera fixed. Except my camera is REALLY broken and required a trip to the Nikon hospital for some R&R. Plan B. We have had plans to purchase the D90 for our trip to Ethiopia. We figure we might as well push that up a few months and order it now…and let’s not forget over night shipping so I don’t miss out on any of my other clients. That would have all been fine and dandy…except I was meeting up with a VERY special friend Monday and didn’t have a camera! No worries…I’ll rent the D90 in time for their session. I felt of twinge of concern…hadn’t ever used the D90 and was just a little nervous about using it for the first time in front of an audience. But we pushed forward. The kids were great. Like little winged angels. They smiles, nailed every adorable pose, and laughed in all the right places at my corny jokes. I got an image of mom and dad cozied up on the couch with the perfect romantic sun flare glinting out from behind a gnarled tree. Then I whipped out a set of vintage cameras and the kids went wild. We had such a blast. I went home to find the sweetest email I have ever received about the “gift” I had given this family. And then I loaded up the images. And EACH and EVERY file was corrupt. I had inadvertantly neglected to turn off a pre-set auto ISO function on the D90. So even though I had manually set the ISO to 200 the camera chose to override my settings and shoot at ISO 3200. Beautiful. Those images will make the most GORGEOUS set of thumbnail prints I have ever seen. So in tears I called my friend…sorry didn’t seem like enough. And we cried together. And I have NEVER felt more human.
It has been a HARD week. I’ve learned a lot of lessons. Mostly that no matter how hard I try I will always just be ME. Full of flaws and mistakes with not enough humor to cover them. And when my friend told me, “they are only pictures…let it go” I have never been more proud of her. Talk about humbling. I have another good friend who has always told me “be careful at the top…it is a long way down”. Fortunately I didn’t have that far to fall…but it was painful none the less!
So tonight I am choosing to PRAISE GOD. I firmly believe there is a reason for everything. I debated sharing this story…what if people lose trust in me as their photographer when they realize I make mistakes? What if my blogging buddies secretly think I’m a moron? Well folks…this is me. Human and messed up and SO THANKFUL that I have a God who is WAY BIGGER than I am!
So here are TEN PRAISES in light of my week:
1. When I didn’t think I could handle much more this morning, I opened a package (belated birthday) from my sister. Inside were a bunch of rocks. really.

And on each of those rocks that were purchased from a fair trade store is an inscription “wisdom”, “peace”, “strength”, “joy”, “hope”, and “love”…and written in an amazinly touching note were these words:
wisdom…to know what, where, when, why, and how to do the things I must do to bring my child home.
peace…bringing peace to the heart of a child, by giving them a forever family.
strength…that in all things I do, God will give me the strength to do it.
joy…for my spirit and theirs as God knits our hearts together.
hope…that tomorrow there will be food, clothing, shelter, and the love of a family.
love…and the greatest of these is love.
These are my prayers for you.
2. Today when I had a billion things to do (like clean my house and learn how to use my new camera before my 4:00 session)…J and I went outside for 10 big swings on our swingset. Just 10. We did the biggest swings we could muster…and after just 10 she yelled “that was SO FUN!” and inside we went. THAT is contentment…and a lesson I needed to learn.

3. I got this early
And although the week wasn’t worth the expedited time frame…it IS gonna be a whole lot of fun to use!

4. This morning I was reading on THIS blog when I came across this quote “You can’t let circumstance control you”. WOW. Sit down and read about their journey to Josie Love. And to think I was worried about family pictures.
5. This came half way across the world to me this week. Another gift. From someone special living in South Africa. And I’ve been wearing it ever since…as a reminder…to live BOLD and not be afraid to do the right thing.

6. This little girl. She’s a big girl now…that’s what she’ll tell you. She is FIVE you know.

7. Mr. P emailed me some encouragement this morning and I completely fell in love with him again.
8. I’ve got a chance to get my creative juices flowing again. I was chosen to participate in the MATILDA JANE PURE PHOTO LOVE contest! So I’ll be using my blog to BEG for votes soon
Mr. P and I have been having a grand time thinking up wild and crazy ideas and I think I have one that is going to be LOTS OF FUN!
9. Friends. Several GOOD friends who listened to me whine and mope around today…who didn’t judge me or give me advice…just listened. And cared. You know who you are. THANKS.
10. A God who loves me despite all my mistakes. A God who is bigger than me and all my mistakes. A God who can turn my worst day into something good…or maybe even something I’ll laugh about {someday}.